almost 6 months

Almost 6 months have passed and I still grieve for maddy. Not a day goes by that I am not reminded of her...the holes in my blankets..maddy...the pictures of her on the mantle...maddy...the screen on my phone...maddy. what an impact a little bunny can make. What I wouldn't give to kiss that fuzzy forehead again...or harass with treats until she bit me lol. Oh maddy...you made it so easy for me to love you..and so very hard to say goodbye.

I miss you every day Maddy...wish I would have caught that second abscess sooner. smudge is the cure for what ails me..and she's doing a good job at that.

Smudge

Everyone...I'd like to introduce Smudge. We adopted her from a rescue on 9.20.14 exactly 4 months after Maddy passed.

As much as I miss and still grieve for Maddy...I know she would want me to be happy. The two of them are completely opposite and if Maddy were still alive I could totally see her bullying Smudge hahaha. Maddy, I love and miss you dearly...

My Maddy

It has been exactly 1 month and 2 days since Maddy passed away. I would be lying if I said it has been easy on me...in fact it feels like an eternity.  There hasn't been one day where I haven't shed tears thinking about her..missing her..or thinking of what I could have done differently.

They say it gets easier with time...and that's the only thing I can do. Take things one day at a time. Sometimes the pain is so overwhelming I lie awake at night with tears flowing down my cheeks. You see, Maddy was my constant companion. When insomnia struck I would just make myself comfortable on the floor and we would just hang out until I fell asleep.

That's what I miss the most...her friendship and love. The night before her surgery we hung out all night on the couch and I told her how much I loved her and how strong she was. Love is a funny thing. It is the best feeling to have..but the most painful to lose someone you love so much.

The day after I lost her that's how I felt...lost. I asked God to give me a sign she was ok..and stepped outside for some air. There is was, a beautiful rainbow. Just to make sure it wasn't a mistake...there was another rainbow the next day too with no clouds in the sky.

I know she is where she belongs now...but I wish I had more time with her. Everything happened so fast. I didn't get a chance to say goodbye..I didn't know she was going to leave...I thought we were in the clear.

I'm blessed to have had another 8 wonderful months with her after her first surgery..I'm blessed to have had such a smart girl...I'm blessed that she made it to my wedding..

Wherever you are Maddy..I love you. I know you are healthy and happy and one day I hope to see you again. For now, I'm fine with seeing you in my dreams..

Maddy...

Maddy passed away from complications after her second abscess surgery this morning. She made it through the night but unfortunately collapsed and could not be revived. I'll always remember her...and I am grieving my child today. I wished that she would live long enough to one day meet my human children...until we meet again my love.

One of the last pictures together....


Signing out..
M

One week ago...

I got married!!!!

Here are some photos from our special day..

More to come soon!

Maddy is 3!!!

Apologies for neglecting this blog. Between wedding shower, bachelorette party, and obsessing over details of my approaching wedding, and work..I'm exhausted.

Happiest 3rd gotcha day to my little love Maddy. Little rabbit..big attitude! I'm so blessed to have her here to celebrate after she gave me quite the scare last year.

My wish for us is to spend so many more years together! Forever just doesn't seem enough...

pictures from our little celebration coming soon!

-M

Rest in peace Rambo

For all of you who have been wondering where Maddy and I have been..we have a cinfession to make, we've been cheating on blogger with instagram! I guess its just quicker to share a picture, especially of you're always on your phone tapping away like me.

On instagram we found a very special account to follow. if you type in @bunnymama you will find thousands of pictures of Eddy and Rambo bunny. They are both rescues who are very much loved and spoiled by their parents in Canada. They have accuired quite a following also..last time i dared to check they had over 300k + fans!

Sad to say that Rambo, wasn't always healthy. He was adopted as a special needs bunny and had a previous stroke and was blind out of one eye. That never stopped him from being  such an amazing little dude. He advocated for shelter rabbits everywhere...and brought attention to rabbit welfare. Recently, he suffered another stroke and on top of it was afflicted with head tilt. He fought until the very end..such a strong sweet spirit. I loved him so very much..and i feel such a big loss from such a tiny being.

If you would like to check out more photos..just google eddy and rambo bunny. Ill have to get the links to their blogger, fb, and store (if you'd like to buy a shirt) at a later time..im in the midst of sweeping maddy poop. sorry for the lack of proper capitalization..or english for that matter...im typing from my phone and just had to release the sadness i feel.

Rest in Peace Rambo..the world wont be the same without you little buddy.

silent sunday! just pics!

hi!!!

Hi every one! We're still alive! great news..maddy was hrs bunny of the day yesterday!

check it out here:meet maddy!

Sorry this is quick, but maddy is doing well. We had her last follow up at the end of october and she is officially in the clear! her xray showed that everything was back to normal. i am so proud of her! much love to you and yours friends!

megan&maddy

Happy Birthday Speedy!!!

Engagement pictures!

Kayser and I brought Maddy along for our engagement shoot. Here is her big modeling debut

In the words of another famous rabbit....

I'm late..I'm late!!! For a very important date!!!!

YARGGGGHHH MATEY! SHIVER ME TIMBERS...better late than none at all yee hear!!! hehehe..hope they saved me some drinks!!!!

cheers to our recovery speedy!!!!

*AHEM* I'm talking to you!!!

Hey, you there..down here!!! Speedy is having a pirate party and ya better be there or i'll make you walk the plank...*serious face*

Btw, the butcher ermmm i mean vet says I'm doing great. I went from 2.2lbs to 3.01lbs...take that dumb abscess! Thanks for rooting for me...now to find an outfit for the party. yaaaarrrrrrrgggggggg *feet flicks*

Look at those little feetsies hehe. sorry for the lack of updates, but maddy is doing spectacular! pee, poop, eating well! she has a follow up appointment on Friday so hopefully we will have more good news to tell you then! im hoping she gained some weight :)...until then my friends..kiss your bunnies for us!

Megan&maddy

Two words from Maddy..

Thank you ♥

This was the first picture I took of her a few minutes after I brought her home, before my phone died and before I passed out on my bed from sheer utter exhaustion...if you look closely, shes smiling :) She is where she belongs, happy, on the road to recovery, and by the grace of God...alive, so very alive...

I forgot to mention that everyone at the vet office was sad to see her go. I mentioned the fact that i was so scared of losing her and one of the ladies said, "honey, we all thought she didn't have a chance...but we didn't tell you that. you've got yourself one special bunny..she went through A LOT of anesthesia."

Dr. Ayres told me he stopped by the clinic at 10pm that night to give her more fluids..and that the vet tech he operated eith stopped by in the morning to check on her also. Both alsoin shock of this bunny who beat the odds...that's my girl. never give up...never surrender! I gave her the antibiotics this mrning before I left work without a bunny burrito, she just slurped it right out of the syringe...i'm in my room right now typing this from my phone...and i think I just heard a lion roar..a lion named Maddy. I'm as proud as proud can be.

♥Megan

Heart of a lion..

So the Dr. Ayres told me to give him a call at 9:30am today...I couldn't wait, the office opens at 8:00am..I called at 8:06 and spoke with the front desk. The conversation went something like this..."Hi, my name is Megan, and my bunny had surgery yesterday. I know the doc told me to call at 9:30, but I am so anxious...*pause* there's no nice way to put this...but...ummm...is she still alive?" (longest pause of my life) Receptionist: "Yes honey, I was just talking to her and she's eating her breakfast right now." Me:*silently squeals*

Be still, my heart!!!

9:13am: Dr. Ayres calls and tells me that I can come pick her up at any time. He is clear that she isn't out of the woods yet, but he wants to send her home because she will recover faster and better.

1:38pm: I anxiously wait in the lobby at the vet office as they look for her chart so the doc can talk to me. The same receptionist brings Maddy out in her carrier. She sets her down and opens the top for me...I say, "Hi Maddy!" and the most perfect ball of fluff pokes her head out to look at me. I swear she was smiling. I could have died with a happy heart.


1:56pm: We get home and I put Maddy in the room I have prepared for her. She can't even wait and jumps out of her carrier and eats some hay. "Look what I can do mom!" Did I mention she's pooping? Eating...pooping...and SO FULL OF LIFE. This little miracle Frankenstein bunny....my little love. The next few days..and for the rest of my life I will be fussing over her. Bunnies have some sort of brainwashing power lol.

Sorry no pictures yet...my phone is dead at the moment!

once again, thank you all...my heart is so full of love.

Megan

"she went through hell"

Just got off the phone with Dr. Ayres...he said Maddy is awake, and looking around. He tried giving her the greens i packed, but she hasnt eaten yet..but who can blame her? his exact words were, "it doesnt surprise me that shes not eating yet she went through hell with that surgery.." wow, he went on to say that rather than forcing it out of a small hole and risking pus leaking into her abdominal cavity that instead he made a big incision from her chest to her pelvis area. he also said that he doesnt know how she lived with it..or how shes even alive now but that she's a strong little bunny. she's not out of the woods yet and the next day is very crucial..he said to call back in the morning and if shes still around we can talk about taking her home. i love his pessimistic optimism lol. one thing i know for sure is that having a rabbit is not for the feint of heart...i think i might have almost passed out a couple times haha.

keep praying♥

thank you thank you thank you all...nothing i could ever say or do could ever repay each and every one of you for being there for me and my little frankenstein lion. love to you all..


megan

Date with destiny..

Today was the big day! Last night Maddy was really active, she jumped out of her litter box and laid by the treadmill for awhile. She even ate some hay. The antibiotics must have done a little magic because she was looking quite miserable before. As I mentioned, she was drinking water on her own and even took her critical care without me forcing it down. What a good girl...

Woke up early this morning and packed her hay, cilantro/parsley, and pellets. I dropped her off at exactly 8:30am.

11:42am- Received a call from Dr. Ayres saying that Maddy was already under anesthesia and that she was being prepped for surgery. They were shaving her belly as we spoke. He told me he'd give me a call within the next 30min.

12:07pm- Doc called back and said that he is dealing with a HUGE abscess. That the good news is that it wasn't a tumor because there would be no hope if it was. "Megan, we've got a shot at it...I'm dissecting it piece by piece carefully because it does involve some of her other organs. It is very much touch and go, but I'm doing everything I can. Good news is that it isn't affecting her intestines and such..it looks like a lymph node got infected and it just grew from there...I'll call you back when I'm done."

12:36p- The abscess is out!!! Dr. Ayres said that all  of her organs were not invaided by it and that the abscess was kind of walled off to itself...he said he was very careful to peel it away without rupturing anything. For the next 24-48 hours is still very touch and go. She's been given fluids to wash some of the anesthesia out. He said he tried to keep it as light as possible, but it did involve a lot..and that the surgery was MAJOR. I am to call back at 4:30pm for a progress report.

KEEP PRAYING!!!!!!

Megan

i almost shit myself (please excuse my language)

i left a couple pellets out for maddy on top of a napkin on the off chance she would want any...i swear if i didnt see it myself i wouldnt believe it. the little brat ate about 3-5 and then laid back down in her litter box. God is so good..and that is just the sign i needed. i know she'll be alright. Everyone, please keep doing what you all are doing because maddy is feeling the love and prayers right now. also, keep dr. ayres in your prayers too so that God's hands may guide him as he cares for little miss maddy. we'll see ya in the morning...again thank you all for being here with me. i dont feel alone...

♥megan